Fest Is Driving Me Bonkers

[snugglemint]

AGH! This fest is going to be the death of me!

At first I was all, I want it to be 10k at least! 

....That isn't going to be a problem. It's already 6.2k and we haven't even gotten to the good stuff yet. (Hell, even interaction has been limited.)  What I'm scared of now is not knowing how long it's actually going to be. I'm afraid that with the way I keep drawing it out that I might not be done in time for my deadline. ARGH!

And the thing is that I can't shorten it. I WANT to make this a chaptered fic and throw in curve balls and all kinds of fun things. On top of that, the way I'm writing this it's still shaky ground between to two so it has to be long and detailed. So everything I can think of doing is absolutely necessary. 

._. Erf.

I'm looking for another beta too. There is nothing wrong with the one I have now, she's awesome, but with college she's a wee bit busy and the way this fic is toiling on and on I don't know how long it will be or when I'll get it finished. I don't want to bombard her at the very last minute with a fic that she's got to beta, especially if it's going to be.... at least 12k long. I'm expecting it to double up at least.

QUESTION: 

Have you ever noticed that when you're writing your fic it's intensely vivid, but when you go back and read your own work it's not as vivid any more? It's kind of like...blurred around the edges. And I'm not saying that the fic is without detail, you just know what's going on and so reading it back it's almost like you're not taking anything in.

ALSO! When you come back after some time and reread something you wrote a bit ago, do you ever feel like you're reading something by someone else? Like it's hard to believe you wrote that? 

Maybe it's just me.

Comments

[yanagi-wa.livejournal.com]

I feel your pain. I have absolutely no trouble writing huge multi-part fic, but getting done on a dead line? Not so much.

I go back and read some of my stuff from time to time, usually when someone finds a mistake or something. I find myself thinking either, Wow, I wrote that? Or OMG, I can't believe I messed up that bad.

*snicker*

[snugglemint.livejournal.com]

Well, it's funny because I used to be REALLY bad about finishing things. I would start them and then I would stutter to a stop. I don't know if it was child's play or what.

But after some time off I came back to writing, and this particular fic especially, I can't seem to stop writing. (Well, I haven't written anything today because I'm being super lazy despite my freak out, but yeah.)

I agree. I don't know that I want to say that what I'm reading is good, because that makes me sound cocky. But I'm surprised by it and it's rarely a bad thing.

[bgreenwivy.livejournal.com]

I hate it when that happens! All you want to do is give a great gift and its like wtf is going on my deadlines approaching, I started early enough and the story still won't end.

I feel your pain.

[snugglemint.livejournal.com]

I'm freaking out too! I know who my prompter was and that's making it even worse. It has to be AMAZING! AGH!

[alafaye]

I've got back to read fics and had:

"I cannot have possible written this! ...it's too awesome."

or

"OMFG WTF was I on?!?"

Working with a deadline...I can make it and do a good story. But it's never great or awesome ._.

[snugglemint.livejournal.com]

This is pretty much the first real deadline that I've committed to. (That is so sad.)

So far I'm pleased with it. Only one other person has read it in it's entirely as far as I've written and they seemed to like it well enough, so here's hoping.

[alafaye]

*hopes for you*

[snugglemint.livejournal.com]

Seriously. <3 I need all the hope I can get. HAhaha.

I really can't mess this up. @_@